Free me.

I close my eyes and all I see is the darkness that appeared around me

I open them and it’s still dark

How can I find my way out?

How can I break free from the chains instilled on me?

I hear a howl

I see nothing

I hear a scream

I see red

All this darkness around me is now filled with brown dirt

No one came to save me

Forever alone in this world

Sadly

Birthday.

I wanna eat the whole cake

Birthday blues without you

First one where you are in heaven for

Oh how I wish you were there to hear me brag about the upcoming moment

How important this day was for me but now it feels like nothing without you

Oh how I wish I saw you that morning

I wish I said I love you one more final time

How can I talk about my birthday

How can I enjoy my birthday

Birthday blues without you

Your birthday is exactly three months from mine

Same day buddies I miss your shine grandma

I love you very much

Here’s to a birthday without you here physically

But forever in my heart

Dolls.

Turn your back

That’s when they come to play

Mama Jen reaches for her flask

Uncle Ben goes down to line up a track

Little Sara and Ken running around chasing hens

Put that light on and everything goes back to place

Looking in at their perfect faces but turn out those lights

That’s when they come to play

Daddy Phil is bandaging his bruised knuckles

Mama Jen needs about 8 more drinks

Her perfect body is cracking

No one sees the pain even these pure dolls can break

Tick Tock

Counting without a purpose

Sounds a bit crazy

Feeling a bit worthless is just a phase see

Others quick to judge

But no one takes the time to

Dig deep but without doing too much

Drip drip

Running down a warm arm

Marks and bruises left for evidence

But no one cares enough to see it as relevant

Cry for attention?

More like a cry for redemption

Why did God make me like this?

Why am I never happy with this?

Splatter splatter what a mess

I am counting without a purpose